Body Positive Singer, Actress and Advocate Melanie Field Gets Deeply Personal With Her Song “Now I Know”

After we got here throughout actress, singer, and advocate Melanie Discipline’s newest music video, we have been legitimately moved to tears at how relatable the track felt to us. We felt it was SUPER vital to function the track and singer over at The Curvy Fashionista.

We love feeling seen and represented, which sadly doesn’t occur all that always for fats people, however individuals like Melanie Discipline and Brianna McDonnell are decided to alter that.

Check out our interview with Brianna McDonnell and watch her Fat Girl Fashion Film, here!

Test Out Melanie’s Music Video For Now I Know:

Melanie Discipline tALKS With TCF About “Now I Know”

Mayra Mejia: I’d love so that you can inform me extra in regards to the track. How did it really feel so that you can get so weak and private?

Melanie Discipline: “I wrote the track in 2018, so it’s been with me for some time now. My mates Sam Ressler and Natalie Love have an organization known as We the Women Collective, and so they have been internet hosting a night of latest works by feminine creatives with the theme of “rebirth.” They requested me if I had something to share, and the reality is, I didn’t save a number of journal entries and half-baked pilot outlines.

However, what Sam and Nat didn’t know on the time was that I used to be smack dab in the midst of my very own rebirth. I used to be nonetheless nursing the injuries of the Heathers reboot not going as deliberate. I used to be determined for a chance to specific a number of the helpful classes I realized whereas engaged on that present – classes primarily about my expertise being fats and the way that has formed who I’m, and the way vital I really feel it’s to have fats illustration within the media. I’d been in search of a artistic outlet, so their proposal got here on the excellent time.

I believed I used to be solely going to carry out this track stay at small, intimate occasions. However I acquired the concept to make a music video to achieve a bigger viewers with its message.

It was an intense endeavor to aim throughout a pandemic, however probably the most unbelievable crew supported me, and I’m so happy with what we have been in a position to create.“

“Getting so private and weak, properly, that’s actually scary. However I wrote Now I Know as a result of I wished to inform the reality. I used to be able to. I wanted to.

So long as I saved these tales hidden underneath a mountain of disgrace and worry, I wasn’t actually free to be my genuine self. So I knew I needed to do it, though I used to be afraid of being judged, rejected, or to place it merely, that nobody would care.

I knew it might all be value it if I might assist only one individual.”

Mayra Mejia: How are you feeling now that it’s out on this planet?

Melanie Discipline: “I really feel relieved. It’s loopy, I really feel so many issues, however I battle to give you a phrase that totally encompasses it greater than that. I’m relieved as a result of carrying all of that round with me for thus lengthy was a burden.

Hiding for thus lengthy was a burden. So I really feel like a weight has been lifted. I really feel relieved as a result of, as I discussed, I used to be engaged on this undertaking for a very very long time, and there’s a nice sense of freedom and accomplishment in closing the loop and at last placing it on the market. I really feel relieved as a result of individuals do care, and it’s serving to individuals. Extra so than I ever dreamed it might, to be sincere.

The entire expertise has had a large influence on my therapeutic course of. I feel I hoped that it might assist different individuals in that they’d hear my story and say “wow, me too,” and seeing themselves mirrored in that method can be therapeutic.

I consider that cultural illustration has the ability to heal and even save lives. However I didn’t understand that I additionally wanted that therapeutic.

I additionally wanted the suggestions, the feedback, and messages that stated: “wow, me too.” It made me really feel validated and fewer alone. I’m so grateful to everybody who has given me that reward.“

Mayra Mejia: What phrases of recommendation do you might have for folk which are at present scuffling with an ED or physique picture points?

Melanie Discipline: “My primary piece of recommendation is to ask for assist. Confide within the individuals you belief, and don’t be afraid to share the components of your self that really feel the darkest and most damaged. Hiding solely provides fireplace to the gas of disgrace. And as scary as it’s, it’s essential to carry your reality into the sunshine to heal.

There are such a lot of unbelievable books and assets on the market that won’t solely show you how to dismantle fatphobia in your individual thoughts and coronary heart however may also show you how to establish and dismantle it within the individuals round you.

Don’t be afraid to advocate for your self, even when it means you must name out your family members for dangerous language and behaviors. And keep in mind, you solely have one physique, and that physique has carried you this far. It deserves your unconditional love, your respect, and your gentleness.’

Mayra Mejia: Pivoting to a a lot lighter topic, let’s speak just a little about style! The styling within the video is beautiful. Are you able to inform us the way you select the outfits featured within the video?

Melanie Discipline: All reward goes to my pricey buddy and co-owner of the Plus Bus, Marcy Guevara-Prete!!! I self-funded the undertaking and initially determined that I’d do the wardrobe styling alone to avoid wasting cash. However I texted Marcy early on in a panic about how daunted I used to be feeling.

Regardless that I’ve come up to now, garments procuring remains to be a loaded and considerably triggering expertise for me. Marcy jumped proper in together with her unmatched experience and beneficiant, loving spirit.

She helped me supply all the garments and put collectively the seems, and I couldn’t be happier with how they turned out! I felt wonderful. The seems captured precisely what the director and I have been going for in every of the scenes. I’m so glad you preferred it!

Mayra Mejia: Earlier than we go, are there any initiatives of yours that you just’d love for us to assist?!

Melanie Discipline: I’m headed off to Pittsburgh this month to shoot my subsequent undertaking, A League Of Their Personal, for Amazon. The premiere date is TBD however preserve a watch out! And in the event you’re considering seeing any of my earlier tv work, take a look at Heathers, Florida Women, or Shrill. Additionally, The Alienist on TNT in the event you like a spooky homicide drama set within the Gilded Age!

This interview has been edited for size and readability.